I’m not fucking around with this life.
I want to leave nothing on the table… no cards unplayed, no questions unanswered. When I’m 100 years old, I want to look back and know, without a doubt, that I gave it everything I could.
Life is all about reconciliation to our true self. When I look back on my 43 revolutions around the sun, I see how every experience, no matter how good or bad, was leading me toward the reconciliation of my Self. As the song in the video says, “I’m a bad liar.” We all are. Our lives will show this to us constantly if we just pay attention. I definitely don’t claim to get it right all the time, but the one thing I know is that Life will always bring me the exact circumstances I need to get back on track and that doesn’t mean they are always pleasant experiences. When we live in alignment with our true self, we know it deep in our bones… and that knowing is accompanied with a deep heart peace. The peaceful are the powerful.
2025 was the year of FULL SEND.
In almost 43 years, I have experienced enough life to make a few successful novels… and one day, I am sure I will share my full story. For now, I just look back on last year and this year coming to a close.
In 2024, I stood yet again at another crossroads, unsure which path to take but knowing Life always makes a way for me. As tough as life can be, I never want to escape it. I’ve experienced a time when I wanted to end it all, but I’m so glad I dug deep and stayed for the ride. And Lord knows it’s a rollercoaster I don’t want to get off of now.
The moment I committed… truly committed… to my life right where I was, everything shifted. Doors opened. Opportunities flooded in.
This year, I built something real:
I launched FEMNiNE, a movement to show women they can be fiercely capable and deeply feminine at the same time.
I bought my trailer, designed and dropped my first apparel line, brought my sons into my training and my work, stepped onto the competition stage, had an accidental discharge that became a pivotal moment, checked off longtime goals like run-and-gun matches and my first night shoots, tested gear for amazing companies, shared my style unapologetically, and closed out the year surrounded by family with even bigger adventures on the horizon.
To every single person who played a role in pushing me forward this year…mentors, friends, partners, believers, teachers, and family, THANK YOU. You know exactly who you are.
And to all of you who follow along, cheer me on, and ride this journey with me… thank you. Your support means more than you know.
2025: We didn’t just survive it.
We fucking crushed it.
Here’s to 2026. 🔥
